Heartbreaking Shigatsu wa Kimi no Uso
*IF YOU ARE READING THIS, BE WARNED THAT THERE ARE SPOILERS TO THE MANGA/ANIME SHIGATSU WA KIMI NO USO (YOUR LIE IN APRIL)*
Nothing is able to make me cry more than the fantastic anime and story or Your Lie in April, also known as Shigatsu wa Kimi no Uso in its original language of Japanese. I have watched this anime multiple times through and the awe effect still has yet to dissipate. It did, however, lose its big twist effect that could be easily found out by episode thirteen of the series.
Your Lie in April follows fourteen-year-old Kosei Arima, a piano prodigy before his mother's untimely demise, as he completes his last year in middle school. Kosei was raised as a pianist after playing in front of his mother's friend, Hiroku Seto. His mother, Saki, had beaten Kosei for each of his mistakes until he learned it just as it was written on the scores. Sometimes he would be beaten until he bled. Kosei didn't really take this to heart until he played a song perfectly in front of his mother and was still reprehended for it. He wished his mother dead from that and she ended up dying due to her sickness a couple of days afterward. After that point, whenever Kosei played the piano, he could no longer hear the notes that the piano would make. He was deaf to his own sound and ended up quitting playing piano.
The anime follows his journey on meeting someone else that brings the music and color back into his life, but the person that he meets, Kaori Miyazono, is terminal. Kosei didn't know that she was terminal, but did know that she was ill because, throughout the anime, Kaori ends up in the hospital, but still seems okay when she is around others. She inspires Kosei to keep playing and ends up helping Kosei with his inability to hear, but Kosei ends up breaking down when he learns that Kaori is going to die and leave him just as his mother did.
As each episode I watch now, I can get teary and on certain episodes like 11, 13, 18, and the final episode, I can be seen crying my eyes out because it has such a powerful meaning. Imagine being put into Kosei's shoes. He watches as his loving mother becomes ill and he believes that playing his best will heal her, but the better and better he plays, the worse she gets and then he plays perfectly and she dies. He loses the ability to hear his music, which is one of the few things that he still has left of his mother. Then he meets a girl that likes his best friend, that brings color and music back into his life. He ends up falling for her completely, but she ends up ill like his mother. Then she ends up dying at the end, and he learns the truth that she actually loved him and his playing inspired her to switch from the piano to the violin just so that they could have the possibility of playing together. He believed the whole time that she liked his best friend, and she died before he could tell her his true feelings. Each time they met up or talked to one another it was heart-moving. She even asked him to kill himself with her so that they could be together forever. He was the reason why she fought to be alive, and she was the reason he woke up in the morning, and yet they couldn't be together. How could this not make someone cry, or at least tear up inside?
I have downloaded the entire series onto multiple devices so that I can watch it wherever I go because I like it so much. I will torture myself with the emotional pain it brings me from watching it, but I won't stop. I can't stop.