Random Thoughts - Is Life the Same as it Always was Before and Will it be the Same In the Future?
I lay awake at night staring at the ceiling above me. My ghosts are flying around me making small noises making small noises here and there trying to get some emotional and physical reaction out of me. I can't give an emotional nor physical reaction because I'm lying in a pool of depression. I've been alive for at least twenty years now, but I feel as though I've been living longer than that. I don't understand how long I have left to live because every day there are an infinite amount of things that can happen to kill me.
I'm slowly going insane because the only people I have interactions with physically produce emotions within me that I thought I had rid myself of previously. I don't have a purpose yet, and the world around me is slowly going insane. Is it because the world is actually going insane or because the more that I live, the more I am figuring out about the terrible world around me.
Maybe the world isn't going insane because my father and I both have the same thought process about the world. The world has always been this way since his aging and my life will be no different. Will my offspring's life be no different than mine or are we going to have to destroy the earth so that we can finally have some change? Will we finally be grown inside of test tubes to the age of maturity and filled with the required knowledge for the job that we are pre-destined for? Will it take the destruction of Earth before humanity is willing to change in order to preserve the future of the species?