Tormented Dreams [No. 6]
I was again visited in my dreams, or at least what I consider a dream. I do not remember anything about the people that I was visited by. I just remember being carried by them all. Nothing at all comes to my mind on what has happened to me, but is it all comparable to all the bad things that occurred in the relationships. Is all my memory loss in my dream the reason for my constant haunting? Does everything correlate to my actual relationships in which I only remember the better parts of the relationship? I can't remember all the terrible portions, not because I don't want to, but because my mind won't allow me to. Is my mind trying to make everyone a falsification of who they really are? For example, am I believing that an abusive ex is a kind-hearted person instead, which is completely incorrect? Has my mind begone falsifying my memories? Will I slowly start to believe that one person is someone else completely? The entire time allowing me to never notice the evil in others as some naive child? Will I believe that those that haunt me are trying to show me how evil they really are, but my mind is fighting back? Maybe it isn't so bad, but won't my mind eventually cause me pain with this protective action? One day my mind is going to deteriorate and eventually, the protective action will stop. Will I be in a disturbing relationship that my mind portrayed as an ideal relationship?
Being brought into the darkness, I slowly will succumb to the pain I caused others and be caged by my own morality. Maybe then I could be content with myself. I no longer wish to hurt others because I don't wish to tell them how to feel. Maybe as my body starts to fall apart I will gradually get happier because I know that my time will be ending sooner. A number of people I will effect will lessen, and I will also have to wait less time to see those that have already past.
Are they the ones causing these hauntings? Are they the ones showing me everything that I've done wrong in my life wishing that I go on an adventure to correct them so I will have a grand story to tell them when I finally see them again?